Took a good look in the mirror this week.  I’d like to say it was a “good, long, hard look”  but it was more of a glance.  I more than winced at what I saw.  It’s always like that.  When we see ourselves clearly, even for a moment – we don’t like to keep looking.

Self-awareness is painful at times. The “who I really am” clashes with the “who I thought I was” and it leaves a mess.

But – there is a but – the more you awaken yourself to the true reality of who you are – you can learn to process it in a much more healthy way.

Sadly thought – too many of us get a glimpse of truth – and we never return because of the pain.

I was describing this to Dwight this week, and he said this – “I guess that’s why they call them growing pains”.  He’s right.

For me it comes down to this – I’d rather deal with the pain of learning about myself, than the embarrassment of learning this stuff when it’s too late.

I’m a dad – a husband – a teammate – a teacher – and too many people are intertwined with me and my life to let them down.

So I’ll probably keep looking in that mirror – but maybe not every day.  Not yet at least